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With love
The things You do, just make Me happyIts what I love about You You keep Me smiling
Lover
     Derrick Choy  Create Your Badge 15.08.2008 (Our precious date!) ♥13 month now!
Lurves
Anniversary
♥1:1st Month for US! (15.09.2008)♥2:2nd Month for US! (15.10.2008) ♥3:3rd Month for US! (15.11.2008) ♥4:4th Month for US! (15.12.2008) ♥5:5th Month for US! (15.01.2009) ♥6:6th Month for US! (15.02.2009) ♥7:7th Month for US! (15.03.2009) ♥8:8th Month for US! (15.04.2009) ♥9:9th Month for US! (15.05.2009) ♥10:10th Month for US! (15.06.2009) ♥11:11th Month for US! (15.07.2009) ♥12:1st Year for US! (15.08.2009)
TheDays
♥1:100Days for US! (23.11.2008)♥2:160Days for US! (22.01.2009) ♥3:200Days for US! (03.03.2009) ♥4:222Days for US! (25.03.2009) ♥5:300Days for US! (10.06.2009) ♥6:400Days for US! (18.09.2009)
FirstIME
♥1:First Chalet ever go for HIM together with HER! (xx.9.2008)♥2:First Girl to celebrate Birthday for HIM! (03.10.2008) ♥3:First Sushi with HIM for HER (28.11.2008) ♥4:First Christmas Day for US! (25.12.2008) ♥5:First 1.1.2009 New Year Day for US! (01.01.2009) ♥6:First Chinese New Year Day for US! (07.02.2009) ♥7:First Valentines Day US! (14.02.2009) ♥8:First time celebrate Birthday with HIM for HER! (25.03.2009) (Postpone to 6.04.2009) ♥9:First time never see each other for 2 WEEKS! (22.03.2009-5.04.2009) ♥6:First Early Breakfast togther (04.07.2009) ♥7:First time HE joined HER overseas! (11.07.2009-12.07.2009) ♥8:First Beachy Day together! (02.08.2009)
Wishlist
♥1:Couple Tees♥2:Couple Jackets ♥3:Couple Wallets ♥4:Couple Handphone Pouch ♥5:Watch for HIM ♥6:Rings(Getting it on 15.12.08 ^^) ♥7:Belts for HIM ♥8:Necklace for HER ♥9:Spend more time with HER ♥10:More Tops for HER ♥11:Study well for 2nd year! ♥12:HIS headache faster cure! ♥13:Get into POLY! ♥14:OUR Rayon Choy Jie2 Hao4 to come out on Year2020 ♥15:OUR Doverlyn Choy Yu3 Xing1 to come out on Year2020 ♥16:Grow to 1.60m for HER ♥17:Couple Ear-Pieces ♥18:Prepaid Card for HIM ♥19:2nd time Sushi treat! ♥20:Promised to bring HIM for buy more Polo Shirts! ♥21: World End at 11th June'09! ♥22: Hope HE would listen to HER just for few more months! ♥23: White PSP Slim! ♥24: Hope HIS nightmare will be Better ♥25: Asus Lappy for HER ♥26: Hard Disk for HER ♥27: Mobile Boardband for HER
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Exits
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Thursday, April 30, 2009
Now whatever I say also no use.. Right?.. Haha.. Really lost my Words.. Setting up a new blogspot :)
Im confuse, Im emo, Im piss off, Im hungry.. If her key wasn't with me, i bet she wont come. Why? Jus now i asked her that tmr she want to come my house or want to go out anot. She said no. Asked so many times, the ans is still "No, I want to stay at home." So this is the reason why I say if her key not with me, she wont come. Im hungry. Wasnt eating anything from ytd 4pm (cup noodle) till now. Other then the one fried banana she brought. I don't feel like eating. Why? Save $. Even tho I eat, I'm still me. So what for eat? Waste money :) Im emo. Don't know why. Got no energy or whatsoever. Im piss off. Not cus of her but to me. I hate my life. I hate my emotional. I hate everything in me. That's all for my rant. Bye.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Just back from making Thaddeus asleep.. Fatso never do it again.. && finally she went to her new house for a look.. Mom & Bro says she go also no use.. Lol! kinda make sense.. Well, let her go! So I can be alone at home again! :DDDD Today theory lesson got stress up.. Toh no mood to teach.. End up like shit.. -.-! Cleaning shits for Toh.. Lol! After lunchtime, go for a talk about downloading free Autodesk online.. End up I taking a nap inside.. Hahaha! sound like a Pig :XX Eat lunch & sleep.. Lol! Cause really bored.. ZZZ! && now, left MEIJUN & I talking about tomorrow's presentation at Lifeskills.. & I missing HIM♥ now
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
After school meet HIM♥ at Interchange.. Going to visit HIS♥ grandma.. Heard she is sick.. Hm, Yea, we reached there & I can see that she is sick.. Then after that, Mom called say need to fetch Thaddeus back from Child Care.. As she & Bro went to clean up the house.. It's just OMG.. The dam last cleaning also need Mom to do it.. && that dam Fatso just stay at home, thinking that she was so well-treated.. Zzz! Yea, My straightforward is back again.. Well, I just speak everything straight out of my mind to Mom & HIM♥.. I just speaking the facts.. Lucky, they agree :DDD Whole night at Bro's new house slacking.. & Mom busy cleaning up.. Hehe.. Not much time left as they going to move out! Weee! Can't wait for the day to come! P.S, i left my house key with HIM♥.. Please do not duplicate one..
Monday, April 27, 2009
Woo! just reached home! :DDD Today reached home a bit later cause I leave school at 5 plus.. &&& new lesson starts already!! Name of the software is Tekla.. Product by Australia.. LOL! Well, XUEYING give it a new name, Tel-ka.. LOL!!! Really cool! Overall this month really killing mi.. Cause every theory is Calcutations.. ZZZZ!! && 1 QUESTION, got at least 4 steps to do -.-! Each Step is LONGGGGGG~ Don't know later need to fetch Thaddeus or not.. Cause Mom not yet call.. I also don't know what can I do.. All I know is, I'm Stress :((
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Woke up at 5pm o.o" Woke up and ate my lunch.. lols.. mum cook :) Aft tat, went to work.. yeah.. boring working life -.- When work, gt this funny guy buying battries.. and he said, do you sell "butter-rise" ? I was like.. huh? butter with rise on it? and what's rise? o.o Den he said.. put that on to something and it will light up.. I was like.. huh? lols.. Den he wonder around finding his butter with rise on it.. Den i asked.. Do you mean battries? o.o And he say YAH ! lols.. and.. lalas~ time past slow.. Brought Seafood cup noodle.. Yeah, like always.. everyday eating cup noodles.. -.- I HATE THIS LIFE! I WANT MONEY! Tue getting my pay.. *evil smile* >:) *kekeke* But not much.. after returning my granny money, giv parent money. Left not more den $250.. hais.. Just endure bah.. (: Den todae end work quite early.. hehe.. Customers todae quite ting hua.. Why? Cus normally when they see i closing, one by one come in.. and it's taking turns.. After tis finish, another comes.. -.- Todae quite good.. Only after i closing, ppl come.. hehe.. So end everything at 10.40.. :) And.. lalas~ here i am :) Alright. Gotta bath and call HER ^_^ Cya guys..
Spending my day at Mapling & Dota-ing.. Today Dad talks the most day to mi.. All about the dam Couple.. Of course is my Bro & His Wife, Fatso! Well, not only I angry with them, even Dad & Mom did angry with them.. Hais.. Some stupid Family problems again.. Is my life only face Family problems? I'm still wondering.. I got a good news from Dad.. He says he wants Bro & Fatso move out of our house by starts of May! Woo! Happy! :DDDD Another news is.. HE♥ finally under my control! :DDD Nei Ni Nei Ni Bo Bo♥!
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Morning went to Tampines Market again.. Got this fish seller anutie, tot I only Sec 3! >:O OMG!? zz! At noon time, Thaddeus waked up from Nap & want to eat 'BaoBao' (Bread/Tea Break).. After he ate his BaoBao, He says byebye to mi -.- At first I tot he just gonna play a fool with mi, who knows, he went in my room! >:O another OMG! Cause he fooled mi! Argh!! Mom was laughing away like hell -.-! Today I training new Char in DoTa.. Haha! Kinda cool! :DD Soon, I went to take my Nap at Sofa.. Thaddeus keep disturbing mi till I didn't do any respond.. && He went to slap my Stomach! >:O Real pain! Till to hot hot weather, Thaddeus just wear his diaper walking around the house.. Showing off his body shape -.-! Alright, I gonna eat dinner! :DD
Woo~ Finally posting :) Both of us scarlion helmed on 24.04.2009 10pm :) Now chionging to 3rd job.. haha.. Ok.. off to sleep.. nites readers :)
Friday, April 24, 2009
 Today playing around at PE lesson.. Doing my NAFA test.. I realise all the stations I never did once till today.. LOL! Every stations got my name called :X Overall kinda good :DD After PE went down to POPULAR♥♥♥♥♥! :DDD but sadly, didn't get the pens I want.. Hais.. Straight went to HIS♥ house to company HIM♥ :) Watching Ip Man online.. I found kinda few advantages :X Can pause the show whenever you want & its free! LOL! Playing Monopoly again today! ^^ Can say I won the game cause I got the most lands :X hahaha! Alright, I gonna play Dota! If 8 months ago, you did not get the answer you want, what will we be now?..
Thursday, April 23, 2009
 Back from Bathe.. Refresh.. Haha.. Today lunch I finally ate rice! LOL! Drawing lesson I finish at 10am.. Just used 2 hours to finish up today's work.. & I realise all my calcuations did it on my Drawing table (a bit unclear, sorry).. Haha! Lifeskills lesson not going well.. No mood to talk about it.. Someone already suspect mi that am I really studying in school.. Well, I admit I really don't have much time for you.. & my replies are late.. Cause I was doing my work.. Alright? Today skipping Dota's time, company HIM♥ at HIS♥ home.. Haha!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I skipping dinner for few days already.. Never eat any rice also.. At school, lunch time eat noodles till I a bit getting sick of it.. Lol! Nowadays MEIJUN, XUEYING & I getting more & more busy over school project.. We need to clean up the Shits that Angie make for us.. Hais.. This girl has totally no idea of what Team Work is.. & I totally given up on her.. Today I even teach her how to do the Layout on AutoCad.. She also never use heart to learn every single thing.. End up, Never learn a thing, I got comment by Toh.. Fuck up! All thanks to Angie! Our free time only happen on AutoCad lesson.. Other classmates rushing work from 1pm-5pm just to get to learn another new Programmer lessons & sadly, never approve by teachers. We, 3, playing Dota from 1pm-5pm, get in the new lessons.. The new lessons start from next week.. Toh says no more Dota-ing too.. Lol! Alright.. I gonna go clean up Shits again.. Bye, readers. Sorry dar♥, not much time to company you♥. Muacks♥.. Love you♥
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Few days never post already. Is not I'm lazy, is cause I'm busy with Dota-ing with Friends & HIM♥. Today HE♥ start working already. After school I went down HIS♥ work place just to have lunch with HIM♥. Then got this annoying Uncle come disturb us. OMG. Really hate it. I also can't say out that I'm been annoy by Uncle cause this Uncle's shop is just beside HIS♥ work place.. Argh! Before lunch, I go to this XXX hotel just to use toilet, HE♥ also got nag by the Recpection cause of I using their toilet. ZZZ! I know, HIS♥ listening is One in, One out.. Auntie just keep nagging at HIM♥ -.-! Soon, Went back home already.. House inside have mi, Mi inside have HIM♥. Understand? The house is just empty.. Again.. Alright, I gonna go Bathe & Dota again.. Kill Time.. DAR♥, i missing You♥
Saturday, April 18, 2009
 Today late afternoon finally get to watch SNIPER! Omg, is a very Cool show. I like all the Guns inside ((: But not the Normal police' Guns.. ZZZ! Btw, I got something nice for HIM♥ too ((: Next time meet HIM♥ then pass it!
       Just back from Bathe. LOL! kinda refresh.. Gonna watch some movies before I off for bed.. Today went to CIP, doing Art & Craft.. OMG! Got my Childhood time. LOL! My job is to guide the Kids to draw in a proper way as what the Teacher teach. & I got to know this 7 year old girl, sitting on my Lap & do her drawing.. I'm kinda proud to say that all her drawings is been Recommended by the Teacher. & One of her drawing was thrown into the Bin, Teacher took it back from it & edit till very nice. OMG. Pro. Of cos, I also did a drawing from that lesson too.. In the end at Bin. LOL! lazy to take it back home. After CIP went to eat Streamboat with SHUHUI, HEJIING, RACHELL, BOON, WEICHENG & OH NI at SEOUL GARDEN. Eat till very full.. & playing with the left ovealls.. Cos got over 100mg of waste.. Those can only be seen, cannot eat.. Boys & Girls sitting different table, so we exhanging our "food" around. LOL! DAR♥, get well soon! (: Love You♥ lots! Muacks♥♥♥
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Just fully wake up.. Been sleeping for the whole Day.. && finally the crazy(sleepy) medicine cures mi.. Back to 37.. ((: Eating dinner now.. After that sleeping back again.. Hope Tomorrow I'm able to go school.. I'm Bored at Home! :/ Mom so Funny.. She finally say our her True words.. "Is Hard to see You staying at Home, whole Day. How I wish your Fever can last longer. So I can see You at Home." LOL! Yes, I'm speechless about it..
FEVER! 40.0, 39.8, 38.4, 38.3, 38.4..
Monday, April 13, 2009
  Today School Reopen already.. Early morning Toh already late & when he reach class, throwing some Damn Questions for class to do.. Yes! I forget the steps already! LOL! -.- I'm not trying to be Proud for that.. In the end still manage to complete with Toh's help.. Lessons for today is Normal as usual.. & afternoon Toh showed us the marks for the March Test.. for Theory, i got 87. Highest is 92. LOL! Kinda crazy right? Overall is just a 2%! LOL! Nevermind about that.. Once done with AutoCad's drawing, Joined MEIJUN & XUEYING for DoTa-ing.. LOL! some Stupid move I did in the Game.. The 3 of us laughing like one kind over the pictures.. Haha! As you see, my char jumped into a Lake.. LOL! & I teleport wrongly for 2 times -.-!! Real Blur.. Ending Game, Both MEIJUN & I beat down XUEYING.. Haha! Kind fun.. But only AutoCad with work finish then can play.. This is my Aim.. Hehe! Yesterday HE♥ called mi & still watching some Clips & laughing away in the Phone.. Since You are so happy.. Why you still need to call mi?.. Ha.. Nevermind about it.. Hopefully You really understand what I need from You.. You are as Happy as Usual, Why is there a need of mi?
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Ha. Maybe I'm getting used to be alone for the whole day.. Even one people disturb my Day, I will get angry.. Or angrier than usual.. Maybe someone will says I'm Anti-Social.. but If you know mi more, you will know the Answer clearer than now.. Today is Saturday.. Another loner Day.. Cool! :DD Time, can see the True face of the Person.. Distance, can let you know More about that Person.. Don't Disturb mi.. Whoever Disturb mi.. You better watch out! MIA for a Moment.
 Early morning went out for Praying at Bugis with MOM & FATSO.. Argh.. Hated went out with FATSO cos she always do things like a Kid! Nevermind, Along I sticking with mom.. After pray, went to ICA collect Thaddeus' Passport.. LOL! That kid's face kinda weird.. Is not as nice as he normally took a Picture.. Haha. Sitting down there since 10.30.. Number was called at 12.10 -.-! Yes, Waited for about 2 hours.. Listening song, reading Magazines to kill my time down there.. Then went down to Giant to do some house matter shopping.. Bought my Favouite Ice Cream && BREAD♥! WOOO! THANKS MOMMY! :DDD Long time didn't eat Bread♥ already.. Do shopping till 2pm.. Soon, Reached home & napping on bed already.. Sorry DAR♥ for not replying eu at 1pm.. cos Really crazy tiring.. FATSO never help looking after Thaddeus.. Argh! Still showing her Damn Sicko Face around to us.. Even MOM can't take it.. I gonna stop talking about Fatso before my taste of Bread goes bitter & tastless.. & After Bread♥, I'm going Nap again.. HE♥ blame mi for taking Naps.. :/
Friday, April 10, 2009
Omg, my Day really bored without HIM♥.. HE♥ is working now till 11pm.. Slacky Day, as I know.. Aishiteruz Baby also finished.. Now watching Code Geass.. Found this Anime through OkTo.. LOL!! This Anime is about War for Peace.. Kinda my style :X haha.. watched till Episode 6.. in 2 days?.. Starting of this Show very bored, when you get the Story, very interesting already.. Haha.. Today went down Tampines Mall's POPULAR just to get Printer Ink for mom.. WOOO!! POPULAR♥♥♥! On the way back home, I bought Mac cos I suddenly thought of mom wanna drink Ice-milo.. Haha.. Its been at Singapore for 1 week.. Stomach not well for 1 week too.. SINGAPORE IS TOO HOT FOR MI!! I missing Yunnan's weather.. I missing 21 to 5 Degree weather.. I miss Smoke coming out from my Mouth at Morning & Evening time.. Then start to slack at Home! Today get a chance to Nap at home' Sofa. Haha! really nice.. && Monday...... School reopen.. Tired..
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Already fed up early in the morning.. All thanks to that fk Fatso! Tmd Thaddeus got fever, cough & etc sickness.. & Fatso don't want to take care of him.. She just want to watch tv, slacking at home.. Acting like a Patient.. She just came back from Hosptial due to her fever.. Now Discharge means she is Fine! & came back home, showing people her sicko face! I can't take it anymore.. Now MOM on the way back home.. The time I should meet HIM♥ also delay.. ALL THANKS TO FATSO!! This is your LAST warning. I called MOM back just to show you that I'm not having fun with you. Once again like this, You better watch out. Fatso.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Those hurtful facts found again.. I don't know how long more I can trust every words eu say to mi.. I know Love is selfish.. But now, eu are the one who is still living in a way eu like it.. How I wish I can just don't care about what eu did.. How I wish I'm blind.. How I wish......
I can't sleep.. is normal when I'm back to my own life.. Well, I'm back to Singapore few days already.. Everything seems back to normal as before.. Hais.. Really hated a lot.. I realise.. everyone only see what I did things wrongly.. Do anyone see what I did things correctly?.. Maybe anyone never see?.. or I never?.. Ha, Emo is Back! :DDD I always get things what I want.. I don't get things what I need.. If I exchange with things I want to things I need, will it be better?.. Or am I asking too much?..
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
  Just back from watching Aishiteruze-Baby as HE♥ recommended mi long time ago.. & at the same time doing some thing else.. I guess only HE♥ know, am I right? Morning went down to HIS♥ house, just to accompany HIM♥ before HE♥ going to work at afternoon.. & saw HIS♥ new phone, for the sake of NS then use.. soon, followed HIM♥ go work place.. Omg.. That place is just too far from the Bus-stop HE♥ got down.. send HIM♥ off then I go explore nearby area a while.. Haha! :XX Found new a Bus-Stop that no need to work so long distances to HIS♥ working place.. & found a Direct Bus to my house too.. Took that bus & went back home with listening to our X-Fi.. Quite long, reached Home.. & saw my room is a mess.. Argh.. can't stand it so I started to do cleaning up.. Hais.. Now I also don't know what should I do now.. no one is at home.. Later gonna fetch Thaddeus from Child Care.. Being long time never fetch him from school already.. Hope later I won't lost my way to there.. Haha :XX Dar♥, I miss you♥
Monday, April 6, 2009
 Today wake up quite early cos I can't wait to see HIM♥.. Then went to HIS♥ house & slack a while.. Haha.. Soon, MOM called mi say that wanna visit Fatso at KKH. Yeap, she is in KKH now due to her high fever.. zzz! I also not clear with it.. Then HE♥ & I just went down to visit..I don't know is visiting or just a show.. Isn't care much.. After visiting Fatso, then went to Novena MRT, discussing where to go next.. End up sitting in the Platform for don't know how long then decide to watch Shinjuku Incident at Bugis. That show is really violet! Got hand chopping off, got kill people in a easy way.. some views can't take it.. so I just skipped it! ((: HE♥ says I scared -.- where got such things as scare? Haha! :X After Movie, went back home.. really feel the tiring.. as usual, bought dinner back.. & eat.. && just now HE♥ got a call from HIS♥ mom, saying that June'09, HE♥ is going in NS :((((( HE♥ also feel the tiredness too.. HE♥ is feeling down now.. & trying to cheer HIM♥ up ((: Dar♥, These days will just appear one day. Let us face this together, alright? Let these days come & go off faster. Like this, will be better for us! & I Love You♥.
Its mi again.. I don't know what to do now.. I can't sleep.. Hais.. feeling kinda emo.. I too lazy to find out why.. Everything seems not going smoothly.. I guess.. I know eu hate been alone.. but now i'm back to eur side.. don't forget about it.. eu say if wanna go forward, then just forget the past.. & stop looking back.. Argh.. my emotional is bad now.. whenever I looked at the post.. really feeling bad & sad.. why I can't do the same thing as eu did to mi? whats the problem with it? Seriously, I'm lost. I'm hungry. I'm emo.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
 I'm back from China to Singapore already! :DDD Welcome myself back. What have missed the most?! Answer is HIM♥, Family & WESTERN FOOD♥♥♥♥!! My Phone got suck up during the trip. Thats why I never contact HIM♥ for so long.. Today HIM♥, MOM, DAD & Thaddeus came Airport to fetch mi (: My 1st seen is DAR♥. Because HE♥ holding something sooo BIG! That makes mi notices HIM♥. When the moment HE♥ get so close to mi, I can see HE♥ is happy. Been smiling & smiling throughout. & I wanna specially thanks to HIM♥, because HE♥ bought my a MP4! Omg! Cost like a Bomb yet HE♥ bought it! I'm so touched. When I'm home, I read HIS♥ posts.. Then realise how important am I in HIS♥ heart.. Dar♥, I won't leave eu alone again. Where ever I go, I will bring eu along! I'm too tired to post about my Trip. Photos will update soon. I heard that when I'm away, house happened alot of bad things. Now I'm back, will it be better? Let's wait && see. zzz! I no mood to post! I WANT TO SEE HIM♥ I WANT TO CHAT WITH HIM♥!! Dar♥, i love you. You are the one who I can't let go♥.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
4th April 2009 Sunny day Boring day too! -.- Whole day stay at home watch EyeShield 21 . Basically it's an american football anime.. Yeah, you get to know alot from that anime.. Like basic guide, how the gameplay etc.. haha.. Yeah, ytd went to take HER present.. BUGS BUNNY! ^_^ Yeah, it's quite big.. Plus the yellow plastic bag, it's like im carrying a bomb or smth.. -.- Hmm, ytd drink abit.. haha.. Uhh, im fine.. it's only drink for fun.. (: yeah.. for fun.. So.. last night slp quite early.. And morning wake up at.. 5am+? lols.. and i didnt touch my phone till aftnoon.. Saw her sms (: Yeah, tmr she coming back le ! hehe.. Yeah, hope by the time she back, everything back to normal.. I reli hate being alone.. Alright, Sayonara! (: -- YA-HA! SET. HUT. HUT!!!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
changed blog skin.. piss off -.- Ok.. go to work now.. Bye guys! (:
Alright.. After listen and think the whole midnight till now.. I decide to cheer up.. And decide to wait.. (: I'm fine now.. Thanks to Charlung, MeiJun, Mongy "Mommy" and Sheng Jing Puo ! ^_^ Yeah, later still gonna work.. No choice.. (: And, tada~ Here is the song i found at sheng jing puo's blog.. 很想你 你 在哪里? 这些年来如意不如意? 还快乐? 还单纯? 还美丽? 时光如何对你? 我 在这里 人海中的一座岛屿 很平静 风平浪静 只除了深夜里 回忆会疯狂来袭 我很想你 你知道吗 如果可以 就让我再见你 美好微笑 清澈眼睛 好确定那场分离只毁了我 一个而已 我很想你 听见了吗? Woo~ 这是唯一 我无解的困境 那些过去 不肯过去 不管我后来遇见多少人 只能叹息 都不是你我只想爱你 我 在哪里? 你会不会偶尔好奇? 有没有 曾经怀疑? 我说我会忘记 只是种好意 All for today (: Bye..
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
I realise my attitude changed towards everyone.. From bad to worse, But i don't know how to handle it anymore.. I just hate everything.. Every second of my life sucks.. All i can do now is flood this blog.. with my sadness, nothingless everything.. Who can just hear me? I'm nothing in this world. Nothing.. I wish to let ppl know what's wrong.. But just no one understand.. You are my one and only.. But do you think of the same too? The moment u said " Got me no me no different. " You know how hurt it is? You ask me to forget it, but u think it's so easy? Everyday with you, i try to put on a smile with you hope that when you not in SG, you still can SMS me everyday.. I don't mind spend more on prepaid.. But ytd.. and today.. 0message receive.. Every few min, i'll check on my phone.. You noe the pain? Everytime i check, i wish to receive just ONE sms from you.. Saying that you're fine.. Or anything else.. But everytime i check, nothing happends.. I guess when you're back, sooner or later you will say "Without you, i feel the same." Hope not.. I hate this kind of thinking.. Just 3more day of waiting and you're back.. Sunday, it's so pain to wait for sunday.. you know? I hate this waiting feeling.. You know ? I miss you.. alot.. You know? I everyday think of the past which make me worse.. You know? I don't want you to leave me.. You know? I dont wait to feel lonely.. You know? I want to know the reason myself.. Every second I will think of the past.. And every post i made just make my tears coming out for no reason.. You know? No one can replace you.. You know? -
Yeah, today i wake up at 5.30pm to avoid emo the whole day.. But still, everytime i wake up and check my hp, a knife just stab right into my heart.. You know how pain it is? 2nd day for not even 1message.. Lie on bed to think of e past till 6pm den wake up.. Everyday at home just make me think this and think that.. I tried to think of the positive like how meijun told me in tagboard.. But still, every positive thinking have a hole to emo.. Everytime i tried to lie to myself but still.. Lie is only a lie.. Everytime i tried to show a good smile infront of everybody to let them know im fine.. But every fake smile make me even worse.. I hate my life.. I hate this life.. But no choice to wait for her to come back.. I think even if she's back, i will be still the same.. Hope not.. Yeah, ytd checked my bank, left $100+ .. Dunno how to maintain till nx month.. Not yet return manager money.. *sigh* Mayb the only way is to.. yeah, less eat less use (: All I will use is for her.. That's all.. I don't like ppl i love suffer.. I willing to suffer more and let them much more blessful.. Don't know what im posting.. Yeah, cya guys. Might less post from now on.. Don't what to write.. Everythinking is just unhappiness.. I don't want readers read le oso unhappy.. Alright, go for now.. Bye..
Im sad, im lonely, i got no one to talk to.. And i dont want to tell anyone anything.. I start to live in my own world again.. I want someone to care bout me.. I dont wan someone to care bout me.. I feel confuse.. I'm lost.. I don't know what to do.. Everytime get home, all i can do is emo.. But once go out, will spend money.. I hate my life.. Everyday i reflect on what ppl ask me.. "Do you think it's worth? If it's worth, go for it.." But this week i just cant take it.. Your sms become lesser and lesser and lesser.. Like today, not even one message.. Mayb you have your reason, I keep lie to myself to make myself feel better.. But the happiness wont last long.. I'm sad.. Who can I talk to.. Who can understand me? I want to cry out .. But no one notice.. I don't want anyone to notice.. But sometimes I just cant take it.. Everynight I will think alot of things.. Which will make me sad.. Everytime i feel sad, I will of the past.. Which will make it worse.. In the past, when i'm sad, at least i have you to talk to.. But now you're gone.. No sms, no nothing.. And I'm all alone.. I hate this feeling.. Really hate it.. |
Story Without a Fullstop @ 9:49 PM